u pop the fuck up out of no where. that’s bad enough but after all that u text me too see how I’m doing. I was fine until u did that. then i get to hear how u'll always have feeling for me but u have strong feelings for her too. why do u have to say that. I don't give a flying fuck. why don't u stop crushing my heart. I can't keep doing this I keep getting over u but u just re-due all of the pain again. u tortured me for months about my indiscretion then u left after yours. I miss u i miss my fucking best friend. when I hugged u yesterday i felt just how much I miss feeling u in my arms. but u left and I’m still here trying to figure out y. I get u left cause u had feelings for some one else but shit woman so did I for like a million different girl but its call hormones. I loved u i was in love with u. theirs a different between lust and love. too fucking back u don't know what it is. god it feels just like it did in the beginning the pain is enormous if i have to get over all this again cause u can shut ur fucking mouth I’m just fucking shooting myself and getting it over with.